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I constantly feel like most people in VRChat are immature manchildren, making it difficult or impossible for me to respect them.

It's even worse when they have no stable job or any job, live with their parents, spend money irresponsibly, spend lots of hours watching porn and masturbating when they're bored, have no clear future goals for their life, and whenever a situation is difficult they choose to be lazy instead of to put in effort.

Often those people have at least one hobby or interest that is similar to me, such as a game we both play or a similar music taste, and we manage to bond over that. However deep down I can't help but feel that those people are generally inferior to me and that I'm doing them a favor by even talking to them.

This never becomes a problem if they're modest, but if they ever get arrogant, I end up revealing to them just how lowly I think of them. At that point, they get mad at me like it's my fault for being judgemental, even though they're the ones that both act immature and full of themselves.

Being treated like I did something wrong, when factually I'm the one putting in effort and contributing to others while they're just lazy and selfish, makes me want to do hurtful things to those people to put them in their place.

I can't let go of those thoughts of wanting to hurt other people at times, even though I just want to be nice to my friends and make sure everybody is having fun.

As a result, most people like me a lot and often consider me one of their best friends, but as soon as they get arrogant I become their worst enemy.

Meanwhile, I personally find it more comfortable to hang out with the few people who are successful in life, because if they brag about themselves I know I'll just thumbs up them instead of getting spiteful.

As a result, this makes me hesitant about getting close or friendly with "life failures", even if we have a lot of interests in common, because I fear what might happen down the line.