I think there's a gigantic misnomer that C killed NA Pavlov. People frequently referenced it in the past, and some people have complained about the way he played in the past, but nowadays the feedback is 100% on his side, referencing 'play style'. Someone else does the same thing, always ending up as the last person alive on the team and then just running the timer while not engaging the objective. And everyone sympathizes against the mean bully taking issue with it.

I've always been 100% consistent with what I've taken issue with, and it's abundantly clear that somehow, nobody sees the game in the same way as me anymore. I want to have fun and competitive sessions. Too often it feels devoid of emotion and totally unfun - it seems like it would be very competitive and yet somehow at the same time, nobody minds when someone sandbags round after round. 

We talk about the economy and although that's much more mixed in viewpoints, the people in control of things have a polar opposite idea on the core of the game and the economy should be promoting, so even there I'm out of favor. 

After today it's beyond clear that universally I'm the outsider when it comes to playing the objective and given the very unfun, silent nature of the sessions sometimes, combining that with sitting and waiting for the clock to run down to an inevitable loss, I really don't feel like I belong. I want to have fun. None of the prevailing ideas promote this, nor even do they promote competition. It sucks and I don't understand the community at all.