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the desire to submit to other persons will and to bear suffering is common in those raised by christian cultures and desert religions in general
it is a warped form of martyrdom where the penitent gains sexual pleasure from suffering or negative emotions which unconsciously link him to divine figure of saintly martyrs and that allows them to feel pleasure in being "wronged"
the sadistic aspect of it is pushing your own lust onto the other person, you're there to punish them for being "sinful" and thus you're righteous and gain pleasure from executing that justice in a roleplay act that allows you to experience the filth of sin without feeling the guilt of doing it
the human mind is fascinating machinery of coping and finding clever ways to bypass rules that prevent them from achieving pleasure