>stand around Infront of mirror in home world
>Acting out and practicing socializing Infront of the mirror
>Confidence is like a rollercoaster building up and falling down
>Talk with my self and reenact scenarios that could happens when small talking like laughing and nodding
>Have written down all kinds of topics on a paper and gone through it several times
>Finally ready to join!
>Get really uncomfortable when looking at the join bottom
>Take off headset and run to bed while holding my pillow
>Feels like having a heart attack and sweating like crazy
>Just lay in bed the rest of the night