It happened again anons

I stood behind him the whole time he was in a conversation, thinking it over in my head a million times over what to say or do and he just stood there talking to other people I dont even think he noticed me at all at first, but the turned around and looked down at me, i was absolutely petrified to the point i thought I might cry but then he gave me a head pat and went to another room. like an idiot i followed and continued to stare and watch him for another 20 minutes listening to that deep strong voice with that new york accent. Ive let him slip past me at least 8 times now, ive taken multiple screen shots of him from meets and almost every time i look at my folder of him i touch myself. I just want O to notice me, maybe have enough time to shove it out of my mouth that i just want to go to a private world and talk to him, hear his voice and have him to myself. fuck am i stupid.