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>I shouldn't be this bummed
>I can't really get mad over this
Shouldn't invalidate your feelings like that anon, should at least acknowledge them and try to accept them since they're real. 
Getting rejected is understandable but don't let it get to you too much, even if he matters a lot to you. Should probably consider it from his perspective and the amount of communication that has led up to this point! I'm about to sleep so I can't properly formulate so good night!
Don't go beating yourself later for spilling the beans here!