>>357259728
No, it made me realize it was even worse than I thought. I forced myself to join, then fought the urge to leave when anyone saw me. Activating the mic was even harder, but I thought everything would fall into place after that. It never did even after 3 years. I had to really force myself to speak every time, couldn't think of anything to say, and just spent the whole time worrying about my voice, whether I was mic breathing, or if my bad connection was corrupting it, and things. People frequently mentioned those problems which made it even worse. After a while I stopped trying and just remained mute, which is inherently a lonely experience but it was even worse when people get annoyed because they know you've spoken before and think you're just being awkward, not having a hard time with it. Eventually I stopped logging in completely and no-one tried to contact me.