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Assuming this isn't a joke, and assuming you're telling the truth: Talk to a doctor and don't pussy foot around it: Take meds, and distance yourself from this community. This community isn't healthy for you, this community has hurt more people who had less baggage than you. This community would rather blame a boogeyman than ever rock the boat slightly, you have literal anchors who admit they threw a pissy-fit over the fact they weren't made leader and people calling themselves groomers and trophylewders. This place isn't healthy for you, walk away: It'll be hard at first, but just walk away.