>>308529047
I used to log in on the same day every week and couldn't any more when my work schedule changed. When I tried other days I didn't know how to join in with the groups there, and the few people I knew would often ignore me when with others. When I logged in on my old regular day, no-one even cared and it was even worse than the week days I'd tried. People move on very quickly here. Real life meetups and Discord increased the distance even further. I stopped logging in with any consistency and it's just presumed I don't talk now. I don't want to completely change the dynamic with the few people I do know, who I doubt will react well to a mute suddenly becoming a complete social retard who can't even form a sentence, especially when they'll likely put extra pressure on my to talk as soon as I do it once.

I considered practicing by myself in CSGO where I can at least get used to doing call outs first and if I fuck it up majorly I can just mute everyone and the failure remains in that game forever.