Fuck you /vrg/, you made me do it. Guess none of you will ever want to headpat something like this. Guess I'll never be called beautiful either, fuck it - it never happened, it never will, it's all been leading to this, I can't believe I've fallen for it again. It was like being force fed and being a obese kid and I've believed my mother that I'll grow out of it. Well the illusion is gone, I'm doing cardio bitch, it doesn't matter anymore.
You know what's funny? I feel better now, I don't have to pretend anymore, I've come clean. I'm out of the sights. Out of sight out of heart like they say, back to square one when it's just me and phantoms of the past. I wonder what reaction will you give me. Will you hold back laughter, will you pretend that look suits me better while I see you contorting your lips in disgust and pity? Guess I'll find out soon enough.... Hahaha I don't even have to get on VR to have my fill, she'll be back from work soon enough. What will I hear this time? Disgrace of a person? Freeloader, loser? I have gone the extra mile and shaved everything, my eyebrows and eyelashes too but I left the white hair on my earlobes which makes me look older than I really am. I look like an absolute clown of a person, isn't that funny? Hahaha, maybe I should change my avatar in VRC too... maybe a volleyball? I could pull it off now with all the scars and bald look! Kinda fitting isn't it? I mean the part where you pass me around like a hot potato and throw me over to the other side when you're done with me. You think I didn't notice? It's just like in Haikyu!! I see you bonding over there, becoming friends, but guess who gets left behind? Me, the volleyball.
I should just throw out that mic, mute it completely, change my name (Wilson maybe haha), and play other games just to fill that hole like I did before VR. Can't wait it to be over at this point. I just wish you could have brought the best of me like you brought the bad. I will be alright anyway, I always was.