>>270325178
Nigger, how many years did you try and do that. You need more help then that, you have deep, deep fucking scars, and otherwise. You cannot expect to improve yourself if you cannot accept help. Move to fucking Tibet and train with the chinks if you want, but stop thinking you can resolve your issues by retreating further into yourself when you are part of your problem. Getting out of VRChat is a start, but you are in shaky waters isolating yourself, find some actual professional help to help push you through this time of change in the right direction.