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This is going to be retarded but basically I haven't bothered with a crack or paying for it cuz it's hella cheap because I feel like I have way too much instant gratification all around me, I never have to wait more than 10-20 mins to download a game, can just mindlessly go from video to video on any website with no downtime etc. So minor stuff like this that keeps me patient I tend to let be, for another small example on my phone I removed app drawer and all of that so I can't just mindlessly pull my phone out and choose instant entertainment I now have to have a specific use beyond I'm bored and have to actually type the apps name out.

I know it sounds dumb but I have suffered from severe depression for a long time that I feel has only gotten worse because I failed to work towards anything because I couldn't reach the goal/get the reward instantly because my mind had distraction and entertainment all in an instant and now as I've been allowing small inconveniences like this and other things that force patience I've honestly been doing better and have been growing a lot more. A lot more to it, but I feel the instant gratification stuff is what really kicked it off and helped me start to wake up and be happy and strive to find happiness.
Uninteresting blog post but yeah that's basically my reasoning lol