I am currently awaiting a Valve Index, a post about how this came about will happen once it arrives but over the last few days I have tried to get back into Flatscreen games, STO, Cities Skylines, Warframe, Mass effect, Even tried a play through of Half life 2 (VR install I can not get working) but I feel so disconnected from Flatscreen games, My circumstances are different than most, I could reasonably spend 12-18 hours a day in VR.

Not much in life that has any meaning or future for me.

Before someone says "you need to get out more", "that too much VR is unhealthy" or "You are wasting your life"

Let me give a very short and concise run down, spent the first 26 years of my life "living" out there even with my challenging life it was good, college, university, exploring Greece, Egypt and then time spent Exploring the UK, worked in the potteries industry, security guard and tech support, Father died when I was 12 but my mum was amazing and allowed me to be myself.

Met the love of my life at 26, (she was 21) both of us gamers and huge nerds/geeks, she ran the college scifi club, our first argument/discussion was about which was better Ds9 or Babylon 5 (babylon 5 no brainer), she was diagnosed with incurable cancer 6 months after we met and we got married and fought against it for 21 years (she spent almost exactly half her life ill) dying at 42 in 2018, my mum was diagnosed with early onset dementia at 55. I have no close family and where I live most people don't even know what reddit is.

I myself am Bipolar type 2, ADHD, have PTSD (leaving the house is pretty much an impossibility) grief, was diagnosed with bowel cancer 7 days after my wife died, 40% of my bowels removed and they are keeping an eye on nodules on my lungs.

I did a post about how VR and gaming helped me cope with my mental illness and how much VR meant to my wife.