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That checks out, parents outright told me they don't love me early on so I grew up thinking parent-child relationship is something more formal. Parent is obligated by law to provide for child and nothing more, didn't feel anything is wrong because it was normal to me. Thought "loving family" is a fake thing from TV shows until entering high school.

I had a couple of relationships but they never lasted, didn't honestly feel much attraction outside of headpats being nice.