I've been around for a long while and I'm thinking it might be time for a clean slate. My expectations are just so lofty against the cold reality that is, nobody _really_ cares, not even the people you're closest to. It's all just shallow nonsense. Been here for so long and yet there's nothing ultimately to show for it. The magic is gone, the friendships unfostered, yet you're still here. It's easy to just sit around and be content but the underlying reality is always there - you could be gone the next day and there'd be nothing more than a 'where'd anon go' a couple weeks later and an 'aw' before the world continues to spin. Yet I can't just leave altogether because vrg is all I have. I'm thinking about leaving my account and starting a new one, one where I don't expect anything of anyone and nobody expects anything of me. I can treat vrg as the social pacifier it is. It's sad, but I'd rather face the truth than keep pretending like this means anything more than it does. No need to get hurt when people don't want to talk. No-one to have ill feeling towards you, because they don't know who you are. Now you're just an unfamiliar name of hundreds.

I might pull the trigger soon.