>>339677694
this applies to just about anything. some-one tries to teach you somehting. you run to your fucking self in your head; fucking wonderin why it isn't workin. you wanna say something to them that make it work, and then your too scared to say it cause if you do it will work, and your wonderin why you havent just kill yourself in your mind. you think of someone and the words dont make it in and its a reason for yourself to shit down on them as you feel you should fuck up if you can't come up with the fucking words. ive killed myself. in that moment you're only on this earth in that moment. it's sad. you can feel alone. i've fucking had nightmares and woken up thinking i'm dying. before this i never imagined i'd kill myself. now i don't trust that i wont die. you're scared you're scared to get out of bed. like u cna handle whatever. u'll be fine u just need a drag, im too shook up. u think about it and then want to kill yourself. it's like as if u get that feeling of one second u feel so happy and you say what do i do now to kill this happiness?