God I feel so fucking terrible.
Why did I even think this time it would be any different than before? The same shit happens no matter where I go.
I guess some just weren't made for interacting with. The thing that sucks the most is always finding yourself to be the cause of it.
Maybe this time I'll take this opportunity to reflect back on the whole thing and finally come to the conclusion it just wasn't meant to be. Still, the hard part will be constantly reminding myself of it in the future and ignoring the desire to do it again, but I guess fighting instincts is sometimes harder than one would think. After all, humans are very social creatures, devoiding them of that isn't healthy. But maybe the health and pain of one individual is worth enduring for the sake of sparing others some pain. Would that be selfish or selfless then? Why does it even matter. At this point what others think shouldn't have any worth or value anyways.
Well, here goes nothing. Again.