>fall in love like idiot
>weird circumstances
>try to win
>lose
>but didnt fully lose
>they like me back
>but i still lose
>try to box away my feelings
>lay in bed for hours
>fall asleep finally
>just feel numb the entire time
>dream
>i dream about them 
>its about that topic
>i end up yelling at them in my dreams too
>wake up after small sleep
i guess compartmentalizing isnt working