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I feel you, sometimes I try to distance myself from my "friends" and they just end up assuming it's their fault and get upset which in turn makes me feel even more shitty because it's as if I'm not allowed to feel depressed.
I've had so many mental breakdowns Ive gotten tired of them, no point in leaving any discords, purging friends lists etc because the outcome is always the same.
I think it's best for me to simply never get close to anyone else more than just being acqauintences. I react too strongly with others, always aim to make them happy but then fail due to own self hatred and paranoia. I have found that for now I'm best had in small doses.