It's been a hell of a year. I've made a lot of friends here and had tons of fun. It's helped a lot with my social anxiety in some ways. [spoiler]But in other ways it's worse. I'm constantly worrying about being too intrusive and clingy, and I think I probably overcompensate by being distant instead. Also, lewding was a mistake. People are just here to have fun, and I'm not capable of the compartmentalization I'd need to avoid catching the feels.[/spoiler]

Sorry for the rant. Looking forward to 2020 with you guys.