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I would be very happy if I had big sister who would hug me and maybe ruffle my hair a bit. It's embarrassing to ask nee-san for affection. I don't want to be a needy or bratty shota, I want to be strong by myself. But I just want someone to tell me I'm doing fine.
But I'm fine, I'll be fine even if noone does that! I'm sorry, I have a lot on my mind and it's hard to be completely coherent. I'm not sure what I want myself right now, it's all embarrassing.