>>269099236
People telling me stuff like I want people to hate me really fucking hurt, I never wanted that. Not once. I can't even cry anymore. I just wanted a place to belong. I can't have it, too shit. I want to fucking die, already slept today but I'm laying in my futon just hoping I don't wake up. Usually sleep resets me a bit, but the "reset" has been less and less effective. I can't bring it to me to even reach out to others anymore, hence these vagueposts.