>>334659495
It's not them anon, it's me! I don't want to make myself vulnerable because I don't know how I'll act if I do commit to this stuff. I've been a genuine straight male all my life, it's not I can just flip a switch and be comfortable acting as a horny anime girl! Talking to people is a skill I've developed over along time, but nothing prepared me for feeling like this! Every time someone treats me like like a girl or even gives me a funny look in game I immediately blush and get overwhelmed. I have made many great friends in this community, but I feel like I can't even talk to them about this stuff because I just feel so embarrassed that I'm this affected by it.

Deep down I really feel like I have what it takes, but I just can't get there. I keep pressing on to uncover it but it's just so far away. I've not been here for too long, but I honestly feel like this stress will go on forever if I never act on it. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YDvG-0-pLyc