it's been months and I still can't muster up courage to attend a meetup
I joined once or twice but I just stood in the corner awkardly for a minute or two and just went back home because I couldn't deal with it
there is nothing worse than seeing groups of people together, already engaged in a conversation and thinking "yea, I'm supposed to go over there and intrude by either speaking up during their conversation or just awkwardly stare at them by their side until they acknowledge me"