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insecurity
/ˌJnsJˈkjɔːrJti,ˌJnsJˈkjʊərJti/
uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence.
as i said i used to have that but not anymore, i did not require any doctor to tell me that i didn't feel good enough but when i came to realize nothing would have been enough for her i gave up trying to impress her, now i am quite content with myself all things considering