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>The 5 stages of grief and loss are: 1. Denial and isolation; 2. Anger; 3. Bargaining; 4. Depression; 5. Acceptance. People who are grieving do not necessarily go through the stages in the same order or experience all of them.
Just let it all out and run through them all then move on. Try not to dwell on it. 
If you're hoping this "group" sees your pathetic pity parade so you can guilt trip them into changing how they feel it won't work if they're actually in the right from a social or logical standpoint you're doing more damage. 
You also sound incredibly spoiled and unused to consequences to your actions.