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coming to terms with your own mortality is a challenge to most people to the point that we conjured up religion to cope with it, the many copes include making offspring, completing great works, believing in heaven, believing in reincarnation and just flat out making such a impact on life as we know it that something of you remains
that's just how ego's are, we don't want to disappear when we think we are the ego so we cope by nihilism, absurdism and so forth while all of our worries and problems inevitably root to our desire to cling to life we see as impermanent
there is some fancy eastern tale of a guy who knows he is going to die which allows him to enjoy a wild strawberry as the best thing of his short life which can be interpreted in many ways but how i see it is the impermanence of life as you know it is what gives it meaning or gives you the desire to have meaning for it
you could be doing anything you want depending on your limitations but you choose to spend it in a virtual reality where you can be what you cannot in real life which is kind of escapism but it isn't inherently bad since life is escapism too if you have deep seated beliefs of afterlife
tldr; you're making the best out of seemingly limited time given to you to find enjoyment in your current situation