>mfw drinking again
>Lost by job cause of drinking and partying with VRG
>At every event
>Slowly losing friends even tho everyone knows me
>Literally realizing I'm becoming the town drunk if VRG
>Everyone knows me but I'm just laughing stock to them
>Can't stop drinking since that my personality now
>Haven't paid rent for 3 monthes
>Drink at least 2 bottles of gin every day
>Lie to my family that i need to borrow money because of health issues and i don't have an insurance 


Fuck fuck fuck. Literally thinking of killing myself. Alchold isn't the problem it's they way i act fuck fuck fuck. How do I make it up!!?!!!