why why why why am i so fucking supid FUCKING SO FUCKING STUPID WHY CAN'T I HAVE A SINGLE NORMAL INTERACTION WITHOUT MAKING IT WEIRD every fucking time someone is nice to me and friendly I just have to fucking be so fucking incompetent in social interactions i subconsciously force all the load, awkwardness and weirdness onto the other person why can't i fucking get how these things work and just say the right things how is it fucking possible that i always say something fucking dumb and retarded why how fucking how is this statistically possible what the fuck