>>308921191
Okay now you're just turning me on. God, imagining someone from /vrg/ being that aggressive with me, getting up in my face and calling me out in front of the entire group, their utter hatred, their disgust, their revulsion... It's like the heat of their anger and rage washes over me and makes me tremble, I feel so frightened, so ashamed of myself and I almost want to cry a little because it hurts to feel so rejected.

But I'm so fucked in the head I actually get off on that situation. Being abused like that, in public, doing the ugly thing in public that offends everyone, and having that person crucify me for it, trying to make an example out of me, it's like they're... raping me. It feels like my mind is being raped by their words and all the energy in the room is focused on destroying me and I can bathe in all that attention for the briefest of moments, until I just get kicked or something, and then I have to find another group to infiltrate.