>>395540992
Being drunk hasn't been fun for a long time, just the moderate amount of gaba and dopameme to make things comfy without a massive wave of glutamate making me feel like shit/wide awake a few hours later. I'd even rather just do a 1+1=3 thing with benzos and alcohol then add in a nicotene lozenge or cigar for peak comfy without being too sedated 

Last time I was shitfaced was a rum distillery tour with overly generous samples, the smooth taste made me put money on a lack of congenes not giving me a hangover and 10~ shots later I was right. Bought a souveneir glass because I felt bad and why not (10 good shots for $16, tour aside, I mean) and it came with another two drinks. Stumbling around ikea shitfaced was amusing for about half an hour then turned into a "okay can this be over" thing

Blogs aside a few psychiatry disorders that got me into the field also took a lot of the fun out of it, but that shit is the most harmful not-hard drug too which is worth some consideration. 

>>395541384
That's more normie behavior than alcoholism; when you're at the point of psychologically needing it to mitigate withdrawals (haha gaba/DA receptors downregulated) and go to baseline it's an addiction. Fun thing is because of the aforementioned glutamate and little gaba left to counter it, going cold turkey can kill you via an excitotoxicity induced seizure (same with benzos but anyone put on those regularly long term has a retarded doctor, most of which are indeed retarded)

In fixated rambling mode atm, can disregard my essay as needed