>>298648913
Why did all my VR friends leave me; anon27, apologies, jelly, and others that I won't name, they’re all gone. Everything and everyone that I love is ripped away from me. I have tried to look as hard as I can, but I guess there really is nothing good or salvageable left here. I thought I was ready. I thought it was my time to taste final victory, defeat my enemies and have peace at last. It could have only been the case if I had played my part perfectly. It was foolhardy to think that I was up to the task so soon. During my last hiatus, I had mastered control of my emotions, of feeling no remorse when I hurt someone. I had mastered control of my willpower, of feeling no fatigue, of never seeking peace or resolution with my enemies. I had mastered control of my desires, so that every action I take must personally do me good, so that I might never be deceived or manipulated into helping someone else instead. But I had forgot a very important skill. The art of deception. I was never good at lying, stringing people along, all that social charismatic manipulative stuff that so many people here are so good at. That alone can be a simple enough key for success. I do have so many role models in this regard. You know I really do enjoy chess. I see now that the king can’t win the chess game all by himself. He needs pawns to move forward and defend him. My next departure will be solely aimed at filling that inability that I have, my inability to be subversive, to remove the advantage that so many of my enemies have over me. But mark my words. This is the LAST TIME I leave. This is the LAST TIME I will have to run and hide. My objective last time was to see if I could transition into normality, but such novelties such as peaceful lifestyles aren’t meant for all men. I have always been one to yearn for conflict. Now that I know there is nothing left to be salvaged, my next return will bring carnage.