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VRChat made me realize that I'm not interested in relationships with normal stable people, and that I specifically want narcissistic friends. I want to hang out with people who have incredibly low levels of self esteem and know how much of shitty life failures they are, but pretend to be cool and fun on the outside because they're desperate for someone to love them

I want to be the one who loves them more than anybody else, until they get deeply attached to me and want me around all the time. Until they start ghosting all of their other friends and only spend their entire time and effort on appealing to me, because my approval is more important to them than anything else in life

I want to push them to the edge and make them more and more desperate to appease me, drag out their love bombing phase for as long as possible, to enjoy the hyper-normal affection they give during it as much as possible

I just hate the ending part, which is inevitable. Like all narcissists, they become unreliable, they fail to ever show me any real emotion or attachment or grow the relationship above fake surface levels, because the truth is all they care about is themselves and they were only ever nice to me because being my friend made them feel better about themselves and made them feel special. Everything they did for me, was really just a cope to fix their own broken ego. Deep down they don't care about me, they don't even see me as a human, I'm just a tool they use to feel better

Once they show their true face and start taking me for granted, acting arrogant and selfish, I will stop giving them the approval they were so desperate for. I will back off completely. They're no longer useful for me. I'm on the search for the next one. I don't care what happens to them past this point, because those horrible subhumans don't deserve any affection anyway

Sometimes I feel like a bad person, but then I remember that treating trash like trash is not wrong, it's merely logical