>>418780789
>I'm happy with who I am.

You clearly aren't though. You are suffering from an illness of the mind brought on by no sense of social cohesion and weak parenting. 
All of it can be fixed, you just need to take it a step at a time. It's okay to be who you were born as, there's nothing wrong with that, you don't need to be "special" by taking hormones and crossdressing. 
You are loved and your illness is making you hurt your loved ones and yourself.