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Thankfully she failed and was in hospital for a few days. Her profile was blanked out for a few days prior and I felt guilty as fuck for not checking in. It genuinely never crossed my mind that she was going to do such a thing, it came completely out of the blue. It was never the same after that, she completely stopped hanging out on Discord with us, and would use a completely different VRChat account as a result, hanging out with different groups of people more and hanging out with us less. I made the decision to leave her Discord a few weeks ago because ultimately I need to put myself first. I have coursework to complete and university applications to worry about and I just couldn’t afford to constantly worry or wonder about when we might hang out like before again. I haven’t seen her online on Discord since, and she hasn’t been on VR at all either. 

The bond we had going was the best. Hanging out everyday for those 2 months really helped in the context of the pandemic and lockdown, as before even getting into VRChat my life was the same dull routine of waking up, scrolling down social media all day and then sleeping. It took its toll on me and unfortunately ever since the group went south I’ve fell back into those old ways. 

I’ve been meaning to get back into VRChat again and start afresh, but everyday I tell myself that I’ll go back in I never do. I think part of it is to do with how difficult it’d be going back in and dealing with the fact that the group I thought would be friends for life is gone... and the person I considered like a sister to me is gone and having to start all over again.