The guilt and self hatred has been a burden since I came to the realisation of my toxicity when I was around /vrg/. I can’t forgive myself, and although I’m not afraid of people finding out, I hate myself so much and find it hard to live with myself. Though I definitely do not want to kill myself, I’ve been having suicidal thoughts recently because I’m such a toxic horrible person. I admit to myself that my actions were horrible but I still feel like my life has been completely ruined because of those actions. Am I a sex offender? I can’t live with myself, I don’t know what to do. I want to talk to someone like a professional but I don’t know how I can. I live a complete facade; all my friends think I’m an awesome person but obviously they don’t know that I am a vile and selfish possible groomer. If people found out I’m sure they’d hate me. I just don’t know what to do. I’m sorry for rambling on.