>>288908981
I'm 5 days since last login. I just can't. So many happy people with normal lives and then, there's me. I can talk, make friends and appear completely normal. Hell of a performance too. Takes massive concentration and effort. People flock to me. Want to friend me and find me fun to be with. Flirt, talk, connect and deep friendships can happen. Yet I know. I just can't. It's best not to. Nothing good comes of this. Eventually they'll know or ask THAT question. I'm destined to be alone until I sort my life around, and thanks to COVID-19 that seems to be pushed even further away. Too bad I ain't getting any younger though.