>always too anxious to just open my mouth and say anything at all to contribute to conversation even when I'm with my 2-3 best friends
>they think I'm just quiet or autistic
>I can't drink alcohol anymore because of health related issues but I tried drinking anyway because life sucks
>whole night I was obsessing with the vrchats darkness
>end up talking how fucked vrchat is again
>everyone is now distant again and hates me
great...