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let me know if you ever find out because I'm struggling with the same thing
I don't even care about not actually being in them, I just wish I would get invited to one or dropped a hint that such a thing exists in case the person was testing my interest
my only plan right now is to create stuff people hopefully find amusing, just so I can get a feel I even exist whenever someone mentions my creations
but that most likely won't happen