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The worst of all is that I like the people I interact with. It's not the case of using and abusing them for whatever kind of personal enjoyment, but genuine satisfaction of being around and with them. There's also a real desire to make them enjoy your company as well, so it's a two way relationship.
But still whatever this is that makes me snap ends up making me hurt them. If I don't do it I feel bad. If I do it I feel bad. There doesn't seem to be a winning move here, other than not playing at all. But what can you do when the urge to play is so strong and you find yourself in it again?
They deserve a lot better, that's for sure.