>>317918821
don't worry, I feel like I'm spending my entire life as a spectator, including my time in vrchat
it's why I've tried real hard and started to hang out in smaller circles of people more often than the meetups. Sometimes it feels like I'm forcing my way in those, too. That still makes me feel bad because I genuinely like all the people in meetups and want to hang out with them, but I hate the way I am and it makes me sad, so better to take the lesser evil...
I just hope nobody minds it