>>346630097
^ this but unironically
if you already look burned out and depressed from the get go the likelihood of people wanting to be around that are low unless they have a savior complex and enjoy nurturing people
so you'll get people who either treat you like their pet project trying to make you feel better (who more often than not get pissy if they don't get their improvement they so badly seek from you) or people who enable your depression and coddle you making you lose your independence in exchange for a comfortable pair of arms to die lie on
pretending to be happy or at least trying not to show how badly depressed you really are is a good first step to making friends, happy people like happy company they unconsciously seek that and avoid gloomy people that's how they manage to keep the illusion that life is great all around going even if they would never admit that openly