>enter new community 
>very guarded always focus on filtering my words and actions
>people like me, make lots of friends.
>relax, feel comfortable.
>start acting myself.
>people now annoyed or hate me
>Friends list bleeding. Don't get invited to anything.
>move on and repeat the cycle for the rest of my life 
just be yourself lol. And now that cycle here is at an end. I wonder where I will go and make the same mistakes again?