I'm so fucking retarded I do the stupidest, most autistic shit now and then, but this one thing just solidifies how fucking autistic I am. 

>be like 3 years ago
>setup a VRChat account. On and off, incognito mode, separate from my main account.
>plan to build a group of friends over the next few years
>plan to fake my death and see the reactions
>make a second account, make it a mute, infiltrate the friend circle with the second account
>can play on both simultaneously, using desktop for one, VR for the other account. Asking a friend to jump on it sometimes as well so we're both in VR.
>spend like 2 years building the circle to around 10 people
>throughout last year I've shared that I have a serious illness 
>mention that this illness leaves you fucked and unable to take care of yourself
>say you can't know for sure how it's going to progress
>while doing this, sometimes loosely comment that I'd neck myself if this happened
>forward to 2 months ago
>start being super sad
>dodging questions
>mention I've got an appointment with the doctors
>keep dodging further questions
>log off, never come back
>jump on mute account to monitor activities
>friend circle is all worried
>talking about me all the time
>2 trannies in shambles, thought they lost a genuine friend
>some other chick with like 50 mental disorders cries
>remaining people just super sad except for one guy who just doesn't care (kinda based)

The amount of hours I sunk in doing this shit made me realise how much of a retard I am, but I guess I get some enjoyment out of this, so not a total loss. I think like 2 people from the group stopped logging in, apparently they had friends kill themselves in real life so they ran away to VRChat, but now can't go into VRChat because they're reminded of that here as well. 

Posting because I'm done observing and I'm leaving it all behind me, I know some of these motherfuckers browse vrg, they would never shut the fuck up about it.