>be loner
>join meet
>find a circle
>try to push myself into circle
>people know I’m there and still won’t move
>I stand inside person
>they still chitchat while ignoring me
>think about something funny to say
>when convo gets quite for a second I spew my comment hoping to get some laughes
>everything gets even more quite and now they all look at me
>”yeah so~ anyways” they ignore me again
>I spill my spaghetti and act like I’m afk standing still for an hour frozen with embarrassment
>quit game by pulling the plug so they think I crashed instead of leaving
>think about the scenario on repeat in my head
>can’t sleep
>hate myself and finally cry myself to sleep in exhaustion

Why most it be like this