>make a mental venn diagram of "what characters i like" vs "what i am/like to be"
>they do not overlap (enough)
>tfw i do not like my avatar that i am, but i dont want to be what i like because it would be "not me" enough and i would not enjoy seeing it in a mirror 
anybody else go through this? it's like it is okay if someone else is the thing i like, but if i'm what i like i don't like it. i wish i had a little follower that i can dress up, because then it's not me and i get to like it as an extension of me/my likes. too bad itd be a performance mess