>meetup goes to play [vrchat minigame]
>usually avoid playing any because of really bad anxiety but I don't feel like being the lonely party pooper again so fuck it
>get assigned a key role that puts you on the spot and outcome of the game relies on you (impostor/murderer/ghost/etc)
>really bad anxiety whole time
>fail miserably and lose
>get so overwhelmed I freeze up, feel absolutely horrible and start crying
why can't I just fucking have fun and be included in normal social situations. and yes I made it intentionally vague but it did happen recently, not playing any more stupid minigames