Give it to me straight, /vrg/, how badly did I fuck up?

>be me
>get VR headset for nothing other than VRchat to escape the horrors of the living world and my trainwreck of a life
>end up using a first-generation loli model as my main avatar
>get into mute loli RP
>act cute for everyone I meet and give hugs and headpats
>not for sexual reasons but to ease my depression and potentially ease the depression of others
>generally met with affection and swooning
>eventually befriend a twitch streamer and his gang
>we hang out for "drinking night" parties every Saturday
>streamer and his friends absolutely love me and my loli cuteness and I can see that me hanging out with them helps ease their depression
>they start adding me on discord and steam
>none of them have the slightest hint that I'm actually a virgin neckbeard IRL
>mfw this has been going on for ONE FUCKING YEAR and I don't have the heart to tell them the truth because it would break them
>mfw I'm going to have to keep up the act forever