>spend all day alone
>no one to hang out with or chat, just waiting for people to get on vrchat
>completely dead until at least 10-11pm
>at this point it's so late even though I'm an asocial shut-in I completely lost energy and I'm too tired to even try pretend to be extraverted or have energy to go out of my comfort zone and be loud or something
>hop instances
>watching everyone standing in circles having conversations and laughing
>don't know how to join
>end up not talking to anyone
>leave
>almost cry myself to sleep for the fucking xth time in a row
even fucking day is the same and nothing ever changes