>>324186681
I'm trying but I'm just so tired.
>>324186725
>under the false assumption that you owe others shit for being your friends
Perhaps, nobody expects anything in return but I WANT a way to give back, a way to show them how much I appreciate them. Otherwise I just feel worthless. And because of that I'm having trouble concentrating, so it just ends up being an endless loop.
>>324187079
I wish that was true but it always ends up happening somehow. I really don't know how or why.
It doesn't matter anyways because, due to the previously mentioned issues, I always end up wrecking and cutting off those friendships on purpose. Not because I dislike or stop caring about them, but because at the moment I make myself believe they're better off without me.