I really can't stand you anymore, you've been trying to draw a picture with broad brushes when I spent so much time focusing on smaller details and then you just call me lazy or that it's my fault even if I never said a single bad word about my condition or insulted you because I ALWAYS remembered you're a living, breathing human being. It was too much to ask the same of you? So go ahead, criticize my mannerisms, criticize how I aproach problem, drop those vagues hints about what you hate when someone does when it's obvious you're always talking about me. I'm so sick and tired of this twisted little game you're playing, shoving me into the role of the pawn when I was always a spectator. no FUCK YOU I won't do as you tell me, I won't acknowledge you, I've wiped you clean out of my memory, you couldn't be less anonymous to me even if you came to me on an alt. I'm so fucking sick and tired, remember that time when we were discussing acoustics and you fucking talked shit about acoustic foam I ordered to insulate my room? You just kept going on and on without even looking me in the eye because I knew it was less about the foam and more about me.
So what, I'm a piece of shit, I'm human garbage, I'm not worth the affection, why are you still even pinging me even now? Is it so fun to kick a disabled pet around? Christ all I ever wanted to find here was friendship, someone that would maybe share something with me if nobody out there could, but noooo it's always about venus flytraps and I'm that retarded fucking bipolar stupid fly feasting on shit that you must attract and consume and backstab and I'M SO FUCKING SICK OF IT. I want to throw my headset away, I want to go back to oculus kickstarter and punch myself in the face for even daring to think it's gonna be better. I SHOULD but I can't and I'm stuck here waggling those fucking controllers at some neon blocks pretending to have fun. Play BEat Saber, Play Beat Saber. It's 2020 and I play Beat Saber BING BING WAHOOO perkele