I’m tired.
I’m always so tired of everything, someone asks me to do something and I’m just tired
I’m shutting down, I have so many people to talk to - so many people that care about me
But I always feel so lonely
I always feel so stupidly alone
I have friends but it never helps
Yet I weirdly feel so carefree about everything, I’ve fucked something up that took me a year to do but I... don’t care? I’m skipping work because I just don’t care
I think about suicide, I think about how it would affect those around me.. yet I’m increasingly becoming more carefree as to how it will impact anyone
I just want a way out of this hole
I’m just so tired
I see no path for me at all in life and I can’t see more than a month or two into the future
Maybe it’s a prediction
“beware of jealousy! It is the green-eyed monster, which doth mock the meat it feeds on.”
I hate being jealous