It's hard inserting yourself into friend groups that have been around for a long time, everyone has stories and inside jokes and knows each other and it can feel like I'm weird and have no personality when I have to silently listen and try to take in as much information as I can and wait for the right time to wedge my way into a conversation and hope that whatever I said lands and I'm not ignored. It's the worst when the conversation is flowing really naturally between people and you say something and it just kind of halts for a second and everyone looks at you like "woah I forgot that guy was here" before it revs up again. I think it'd be fine if I actually knew them and knew how to talk to them but man it's hard not to feel extra lonely when you're in a social setting and you know nothing would change if you weren't there at all. I'm just being negative in this post but I will keep trying to connect with people because all I really need to do is get out of my shell a little bit more and have people warm up to me so I'm not just a quiet weirdo orbiting conversations.