>>344273007
I'd love to help you.
Without memeing or calling bs or something, I don't think this is the right place for you to get the help or support you need. I never experienced this and I don't know anybody who experienced this.
It may or may not help if you realize that these voices do most likely not appear from some being/demon or whatever, but "merely" from your own mind.
So far it seems like you haven't harmed anybody, so the fear you have is just the "what if".

So yeah, tl;dr:
If you are serious about this and not memeing, get help outside of 4chan.