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>lets me be jealous
Jealousy is an ugly, repulsive thing. Keep it to yourself. Do not let it control you. Never do ANYTHING out of jealousy.
>have them for myselves the way i want
Infatuation is a fake, selfish form of love. It's intoxicating. Just a form of addiction. A sickness that will poison your mind and cloud your judgement. If this is the kind of love you crave, then you are like a junkie seeking the next high, and you'll find yourself going through bfs/gfs like dirty socks.

True love is selfless. It's not conditional and never turns to hatred.