What's the appropriate attitude to have in regards to the hundreds of splinter discords that exist? I'm not in any besides the well known ones and whenever I hear about someone who owns one, someone that I care more about and feel I have a connection with, it kinda brings me back down to reality. I have a nice enough time with people in /vrg/ but it's pretty fucking pathetic that everyone belongs to multiple splinter discords while I'm just kinda here. It's like being an NPC. Like why even be here if nobody actually cares enough about you to invite you to one of the many, many servers?

Someone else talked to me about it. I like them and thought other people did too. I just don't really get what I'm supposed to take away from it all. I've been to multiple IRL meetups which makes it all seem even more pathetic, like why am I even going to these events if people don't care enough to include me? Unironically, what should my takeaway be? Being here for years and somehow being this far on the outside of everything, why still be here and what hope can I have anywhere else? Should I be unfriending people, if they don't consider me to be friends enough to be included in their server?

I'm fucking clueless, but I do know that it all makes me feel very pathetic and fucking stupid for pretending to socialize with people who all are much closer to one another than I am to them. I genuinely do not know what the play is. I'm asking for some real wisdom and analysis. Help me out.