I haven't really checked /vrg/ threads for two years but now i come and ask,

how do i come to term that i can't make friends?
I used to go to the meetups since the beginning but fast forward years later, i stopped joining because i never managed to make friends or trade contacts with anyone.
i even managed to lose a few dear friends to VRC, they favored hanging out with people they met in VRC more than just chatting with me, i considered them close friends but now our relation is just acquaintance at best, they prolly wouldn't notice if i was offline for years or dead at this point.
Not really mad about it anymore since they prolly are doing better ever since they opened themselves to more people unlike me.
All i do now is going in empty worlds abandonned by all just sitting and watching the landscape for 15 minute and change to another world every weekend.

Knowing that, it should be easier to accept i'm better left alone but i still don't feel comfortable about it.
anyone ever felt like it?