>>319874096
I don't know, I don't think I can stomach it. On the outside I may not seem like I'm anxious or bad with people at all, I attend the meetups of any size just fine, I talk to people, I hang out in smaller groups or even with just one other person too but still even just the thought of this scares me. I've become too self-aware of how boring I actually am and I care too much of what other people think of me, to the point where it's slowly ruining my life. And such an event seems to put those things in the spotlight