>>328523940
I've been through the exact same thing my dude. My first instinct was panic and avoidance, and I've pretty much just gone in balls deep now. Someone can probably figure out who I am with this but whatever.
I recommend taking it slower though. There's plenty of nice people here you can get comfortable with and help you deal with managing intimacy. Unironically most of the people offering you intimacy and attention went through the same shit.