>>314782906
Can't help you there as I can't understand that. It's not something you had any part in or can be held responsible for.
I live in a shitty country and would consider my family of below average wealth while growing up. I learned from a young age to not ask much from my parents as the struggle was obvious. They invested their everything just to have a proper home so not much was left for other shit. It's kind of why I also never got into hobbies as they required some amount of money to start (instruments, classes, etc). Other part was laziness.
But I did the best I could with it and so far it's been going ok, although my ambitions are still ruining my mood all the time, constantly thinking I could or should have done more. Yes, it does suck when I think about how in other countries people earn up to 5 times more than I do for doing the same job I do, while also having higher living standards and not really having significantly more expensive living costs, but so what. I'm not gonna get mad at some random nordic because of that.
So stop even thinking about that, you've your own life to focus on, only you can steer it