>>366037026
You sound pretty easy to get along with, hope that we'll somehow manage to meet in one of the games posted here. 
I'm a literal who so sadly I can't invite you to a comfy /vrg/ group, but the anon above me is right, participating in smaller and possiblly art focused groups might work. Those are the places that often have interesting conversation topics that allow you to get to know others better. 
Just don't beat yourself up too much, I'll be rooting for you.