>>340686164
because you're a real human bean and your impulses tell you that you need to adapt to the group to survive
that impulse is outdated and from the tribal era it just got stuck around because pack animals need the pack to survive
understand that it is an impulse and treat it as any other impulse that you do not want to indulge in, observe and notice when it arises after that accept that it arose and then let it pass you
it takes time and you will still relapse into impulses occassionally but it is better to try than to nose dive into fukitol
>>340685994
perhaps you feel like if you unadd them before they unadd you you didn't get abandoned
it is a means to maintain control over your life but as you said a rather bad one at that