i worry it'll be over soon

well, you made me happy
i still believe in all the things we talked about when we were both so happy, so giddy about the future, so lovestruck, spending hours and hours together
have we even spent three hours together this week? we used to double that in a night and it felt like nothing...
and when was the last time we had sex
not fucking, even
hell, just intimate touch, even, below your shoulders
i genuinely can't remember.
i love you. i'm sorry I'm not the one you need. but I'm mostly sorry i can't be the one you want