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I know, but usually in a group I get even more anxious due to being introverted and anti-social. I just lock up. I can force through it, but only in small bursts or I literally feel exhausted. I don't know about you guys but I think I'll never be "normal" or "chatty" or social. I think that's a trait you learn before the age of 4 or you never learn it at all and I didn't, so there's no redeeming myself. Apparently this is what I read in some science studies. You can't learn to be social later on in life. If you don't like it, you won't like it, but the shitty thing is I often feel so fucking alone it's insane and I can't make friends in my age anymore and haven't had one in real life for over 10 years. It's true what they say that the only real friends you make during school years and when those are over, you can't make real friends at all. You can make plenty of online friends I think and connect that way, maybe even some e-lovers, why not. But meeting that someone is next to none existent. Especially with Rona in the world making sure no travel is possible abroad for a while.