Why am I still here? Why am I still playing VRChat? Why do I keep coming back? No one knows me, no one cares, even if some one ever wants to ask me something they ask others for me instead. Just how repulsive am I to talk to? Even straight up ignored sometimes meanwhile others are so close and trusted they meet up irl. I thought VRChat would help me fix my repulsive personality and anxiety, not worsen it... Has it all been a mistake? But how do I stop now? It's too hard... I keep holding on to hope. I wish I could learn to let go.