>>322080521
play games play games play games. with who? alone. alone ofcourse. alone. lonely. i was alone most of my life. i hate other people but i am lonely so i want to be around others but i hate it i hate having to live up to expectations i cant fulfill. its heartcrushing. im stepping around things to explain my situation since i told it to others and i dont want to be recognized. it feels horrible. i am too self pitying. its great, im fine. i am okay :). i will ghost you. do not talk to me. i am fine. if you interact with me too much i will ghost you. if you have a genuine interest in me i will ghost you. dont talk to me. but i do want to talk to you. or atleast observe you i dont want to be alone i want to keep watching be distant i dont want to interact but i want to feel an illusion of being close with someone.