Well VRG I guess my time is up. When that clock hits 12'o clock I'm fucking done with this shit.

Tried for the past 4 years to develope my social skills, get friends, have a relationship and maybe slowly become a healthy individual in irl society but know here we are at the last hours of 2021 and things have not only been stale but spiralled into pure madness and hell for me. I thought it could get worse when i joined in 2018 but oh was I wrong. They say that it's better to have loved that never loved but what a fucking lie. Not only are we back at zero now I just have a massive hole in my heart.

I can't fucking take it anymore anything but this reality would be better I'm living a literal hell and it most be me who is unfit for this world just a parasite a pathetic blob of flesh.

I'm not going out with a bang I'll do what I was ment to do end it all in quite and peace. I'll join the new years event watch the time tick and then leave my life behind.

I'm sorry VRG some of you might no me and most of you don't. Those who do notice my absence....well I'm sorry please forget me and move on I'm just a burden.