>>331277737
>>331277880
I honestly hope you're just memeing because this state is pure suffering.
Imagine constantly having ambitions and plans but no will to do anything about it, and each failure to make it real only makes you feel more worthless and empty. At this point I've lost all hope for myself. I already accepted the fact that I'm going to be alone my whole life, that's fine. However what I still can't accept that I'm never going to be satisfied in my life. No matter what I did and no matter how far I've gotten I just fail to feel content or any sort of pride. How long you supposed to go like this, doing things but feeling nothing but a short-lasting dopamine rush?
I don't even feel human anymore. I've become scared to interact with others because I've lost any capability of feeling empathy. Or maybe I never had it in the first place.
But for some inhuman scum I sure am an emotional wreck. What a great combination.
>>331277927
I've tried so many things yet everything ended up exactly where I am now. I workout regularly, I've tried creative outlets be it music or even just avatar-related work, nothing gives results. I got into new social circles such as this one but no, nothing changed.
>>331278297
I don't take meds, at least not any for mental health problems. For years I thought the constant fatigue I feel was related to a physical illness. Even my parents begged me to go get checked out.
But no, this has to be depression, it's a core symptom. It's scary thinking about how long this has been going on.
>>331278138
>>331278457
(You)