i'm such a mess
i keep laughing and pretending like it's all okay to not make anyone else worried even though i feel the pain inside growing
i can't keep this up for much longer
i can feel it
im going to freak out one of these days and i don't know what will happen
nowhere to go
no one i can trust
anymore
i wish i hadn't done it
i wish i could go back in time and fix everything
too much of a pussy to kill myself so ill just have to live in this misery until i cant anymore
its not even really all my fault
i was manipulated and it ruined me
but at the same time i was also the manipulator
nothing makes sense
nigger
nigger
nigger