>>291134052
I know this might be hard for you to hear, but as long as you continue to run from the past and seek out those golden windows of time you will never find them. You have to learn how to sit through the pain, and mend the cuts until you are comfortable with what once hurt you. Walking around without mending them will lead to more pain. Wish you luck, but man you need to speak your mind and get it out, I talked about the past with you but you held back, you really need to let it out. If you hold back and don't speak to those you believe hurt you things will end up like this wherever you drift given a few years.

Friendships and long term relationships of any kind will involve pain, but overcoming it together builds a bond stronger then anything I have seen, avoiding those talks creates a the greatest pain I have ever felt.