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>your evil thoughts saying no one really likes you and that you're alone are wrong
but the thread says this too, well besides this post ;~; how did you know those thoughts always happen
i cant combat them
especially not when my infos leaked everywhere
fuck
the thoughts were reinforced and control me now
whenever im around other people, my brain gets a weird fog and my thoughts become stunted, i cant find the right words and make them think im retarded
when im alone, my thoughts are free wild and understand even complex structures
my friends gave me a center, a middle ground where i was shining
with their support, i was able to develop a skill i was proud of
i was seeking and successfully gained employment, which wasnt REALLY employment, i was getting paid doing a fun thing
then the friends told everyone all my juicy details
its all out there
i feel so exposed dirty and used
i hate it
those thoughts were right
i shouldve listened
now my minds a swampy chaotic mess and has nowhere to go
[spoiler]if only your words were true
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