I'm just me wherever I go. It's less about "fucking up a personality" and more "Welp. They know it's insertusername here again". Your actions are just tied to that name, and that's both good and bad. Once I start talking it's easy, but starting is like trying to dip your hand in boiling oil. I STILL remember this time I played Pavlov and someone laughed after they killed me. I never knew why, and it was extremely worrying. I go to work, I can speak just fine in real life, but online, trying to get with a community is stressful.
I appreciate the kind words, however. [spoiler] I just don't want to hear "HOLY SHIT IT'S A GIRLTRANNYBEING [/spoiler]