So it's come to this. I've tried dating girls my age IRL and never really found any passion or attraction between us. VR was a lifechanger for me since I finally found girls (men) who are attractive enough and have similar interests. I opened up, gave VR sex a try, but eventually after a few months I found I was missing something. The few times I hugged girls IRL kickstarted that yearning, but talking to cute girls in VR sorta sealed the deal for me. So I started dating girls IRL, admtitedly more than a few at a time to play the field and try to discover my type. I went for girls older than myself by a few years since the younger ones really didn't have any motivations 99% of the time and it reminded me too muh of myself honestly. But in this discovery I segwey'd into meeting married couples. polyamorous couples especially, where the man and wife are both open to dating difefrent people. Or in my case, the same person. I started off dating just the wife (no casual sex or anything just intimate, intellecutal dates) and also dated the husband on the side to try and appease any underlying insecurities or doubts he might have. And yes, I have had sex with men and women, sometimes both at a the same time, sometimes me and the man would go out and find curious girls to tag team just for fun. I've fucked old girls, young girls, tall girls, short girls, black girls, asian girls, white girls, and some dudes as well over the past three years,. my bodycount is sitting around the high double digits at this rate. But even then, having found what I thought was my calling and the secre to forming that intimate bond I needed to stay hard and finnaly coom IRL, there was a piece missing that I found during my first date with a married couple. An internalized thought to really set myself into focus, if you will.