>>315502237
I don't think it had to come to this. I used to have a similar problem where I'd end up as the last player alive all the time and have no idea how to proceed without simply feeding the enemies another kill. I think it frustrated people that the clutch was always up to me and I'd never manage it. I eventually got around it by staying with the bulk of the team, even if it meant dying early with them. I used an alt account where I didn't have the pressure to maintain any reputation (unlikely anyone cares anyway) so I could try out different things even if I went 0:10 by doing so and learned a lot more about the game to the point that I'm not helpless if the last alive. Maybe you could do the same eventually, when it isn't obvious the unknown player is you. Join under a different name and play with no consequences.

I liked playing with you, even if no-one else did. I don't think you did anything irredeemable and your reputation is mostly a case of bad timing that exaggerated everything. /vrg/ can be a very harsh place.