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>>312299354
again, I don't think we're talking about the same thing. I'm not talking about anxieties or any other kind of mental states that prevent you from talking. Maybe some come as a product of this deeper issue but I did not want to focus on them. I don't have a problem with talking to people, just today I've visited some folk I've never talked to before and while most of the stuff they talked about was the good old times 40 years ago and some activies I've no idea about I didn't feel anxiety, just kind of dumb I had nothing to contribute aside from a few comments here and there. But this is a one time thing, or a rare occasion that won't be repeated in a while, there was no incentive to bother. VRChat is different as you're the one coming over there willingly, hoping to gain something that might make you feel better, but instead all you got is more disappointment in yourself as you realize you had to invest something you don't have first.
In short: imagine being the most boring person imaginable (at least in vr world) and try to talk about something while having almost no opinions or knowledge on any of the topics being presented to you. Maybe a result of this state is some anxiety but I wouldn't classify that as a disorder.
The solution to this might seem simple: just learn about something lmao, just get a hobby bro, just watch some movies dude. I wish it was that simple, but I just find it to be like the cycle of depression. 
>be depressed -> get fatigued -> decrease activity -> feel guilt and hopelessness -> repeat all the while doing nothing about the issue
>>312298280
>tfw blackpilled myself again

oh yea happy halloween