This is my first post in this thread. I don't know how else I can prove it so here goes nothing.
I'm making this post because only I have the power to end this.
I hereby promise to stay out of all vrfps lobbies forever unless unanimously approved to join.
I will never be able to fully atone for all of my sins in the last couple years, but I am convinced that this is mandatory. 
I have no acceptable defense for my actions. If you had to make me guess, I think I'm just very retarded. 
Too often I become paralyzed by fear, which becomes a habit and too often leads me to do terrible things. 
I don't even know what kind of mental illness it is but I know too many people won't believe me.
That's why this must be an unconditional surrender.
I will accept nearly any humiliation or punishment that any wronged party wishes to give me. Let me know publicly or privately and I will promise to respect that privacy and do everything in my power to make amends.
I never want to make a non-anonymous post like this again.