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1 = I really hate being asked how I am or what I've done. I have no idea how to respond to it with anything other than a generic dismissive answer. Anything negative is automatically bad, so it's going to be at least somewhat a lie if you're obliged to talk about something positive, but then you can't say anything that might seem braggadocios, most of the things you can mention aren't going to be anything they can relate to anyway. The honest answer would be 'nothing much' because I'm not interested in building a library of interesting experiences to tell people about in response to that question. I wish people just wouldn't ask it, but I realized recently that most people consider not asking it to be very impolite, even if they give an insubstantial response. Am I just meant to reply 'fine, how are you?' and get the obligation out the way?

2 = If I ever say I'm leaving it just gets drowned out completely and no-one responds. Intentionally disrupting others to ensure they hear sounds really awkward, especially if they don't even know me well.

3 = I remember this well. Others don't even remember meeting me in the past even when I can remember multiple times we interacted, so I don't think this is essential. Maybe it's just because I have so few experiences that it's easy to remember them, whereas other have thousands of times the amount.

4 = every time I've tried this, it's failed. It's 'no' almost every time, and the very rare occasions I actually managed to arrange something, they didn't show up. It reminds me of people who claim you can just drop a portal, tell people it's there, and they'll follow you if they're interested, but in practice, it's only certain people who can do this. Most of the time when others attempt it, they get awkwardly ignored and their attempts to draw attention to it just make it more awkward for everyone.