>>266115571
heh, blamed again as always. i get it, its always my fault wherever i go
watching others taking simple things for granted
im the spoiled one, even though the people around me are spoiling eachother constantly, showering eachother with affection and praise. i poured my hardest into that event, hoping for the simplest gift that showed care, its not like the christmas event was the first time its happened. i should be used to it, but its just chipping away til the rocks gone. weathering, not immunity.
how am i a grinch when i put my all into my gift? i spent time learning a new skill just to get them a custom gift showing i cared.
oh well, its nothing different from how ive always been treated, even when i show up to randoms in pubs. i must be irrecoverably autistic, family, friends, internet friends, not a single one has lasted. i cant even stand myself now.