My biggest fear about vrfus was that someday you'd leave me. I... I grew up in a home where people left, and I had to clean up after, and I just couldn't go through that again. And so... when I didn't see you log on I thought, well, here it is. My worse fear--vrfu's gone. And then I thought, OH! damn! My new christmas outfit is an obvious matching pair outfit and I'll have to get someone else to do the other one. You had just left me and I was thinking about my christmas outfit. It was so weird, I kept waiting to feel devastated, but instead, I-I felt... I didn't know. I... couldn't put a name to it. Then, when I logged on and I saw you were back... I suddenly realized what I had been feeling the whole time you were gone... it was relief. I... was relieved.